playing in the background : Red Rover - Rosie Thomas and Sam Beam (Iron & Wine)[removed]life seems just a little stale these days. we just go on this endless repeat of trying to keep to our study plan, to prepare to not fail our A levels which are one month away, agonizing about our lack of something, be it motivation or love, that that is intangible. maybe for some, it's money. perhaps making plans and writing lists can take those thoughts away or hide them til we are brave enough to face up to them.
admitting that i still have him in my mind was easy on my fingers but not on my mind. Without a doubt, i was in denial and have been for quite a while, floundering and awaiting for something.
i've been trying rather unsuccessfully to start on my GP essay for the past few days. i need to get rid of that procrastinating bug in my brain(and hands and ass) and start finishing my work before i can do my revision.
results have not been optimistic. Ds for everything i've received and will only be Cs if the school is kind enough to round up my decimals. i hope things are better for my peers.
yesterday, there was a mishap involving curry and a white bag, and we had to run in the rain and dash across a busy road. evidently, being the idiot i am, i needed a 'helping hand' on the last one.
was assisting Vicki in her compilation and well, it makes me wonder if i will ever find someone i can do that for or someone who would do the same for me. til then, i'll be listening to Rosie Thomas and reading Chuck Palahniuk and Jean Coctaeu.