i woke up with the same throbbing pain, having the air cut off from my room didnt help. i took a bath yesterday, not realising there were men hanging on cables & boxes outside the window.
i looked back on the messages in the phone. i kept the most painful one from J. the one that said how much he loved me, so that i will never make the same mistake again. but alas, i never learn.
i remember the last migraine attack. i cried in sch, in front of all my classmates, mrs tan and everyone who was at the balcony. i told D. abt it and he amused me with talk of not wanting his hair to turn white with worry.
it wasnt hard falling in love, staring at each other across the table, sitting close to you on the long bus journey, knowing you were late in getting home to leave, one week away from you when you left town. not forgetting the walk along clarke quay & boat quay, meeting my uncle, being caught in the rain when you were sick so that you could walk me to the library.the look on your face when i pushed you away when you tried to hold my hand.come to think of it, you didnt believe as much as you said you did. you never said it.all those times you told me you did, but what was it? that just broke everything?"i cant take any more lies.it`s not too late if u want to go away." - 17oct05"have u ever felt u held all thehappiness u cld ever feel in your hands." - 29nov05your hearts` safe with me.
"u're just too good to be true
can't take my eyes off of u
u'd be like heaven to touch
I wanna hold u so much" - 02nov05
"I can't help it baby this is who I am
I'm sorry but I can't just go turn off how I feel
You kill me you build me up but just to watch me break
I know what I should do but I just can't walk away. " 03dec05
- "i think i should really hug you to sleep"
IT'S DESTRUCTIVE AND PERNICIOUS TO HOLD ON. THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS ONE LAST CHANCE. YOU CAN FORGIVE, BUT YOU WILL NEVER FORGET.