Thursday, February 08, 2007
Monday, February 05, 2007
i read to stop thinking
Saturday, we put on Dvds at his place. and i met his parents. we wanted a good laugh and a lazy afternoon and we did have. with his adorable sister, pretzels and sparkling.
thereafter, i met zhihan at the National Library and we ran into his brother when we were at Bugis. then was over to Benson's for a BBQ. stayed there til late after we managed to work out car routes and andrew drove us home. maybe it's time for me to work for my license. it seems lovely cruising down the streets in the night, without the buses crowding the roads.
Friday, alicia waited for me outside my office while i was up at the library running errands and chatting with the librarian. then i met Des, after being harrassed by this unidentified Malay man. we hung out outside Gas Haus, slightly socializing and more of checking out the people. ran into an old friend there.
whoever it is with, we always have issues. well, maybe it's not them but me. the skeptic and cynic in me just refuses to ever believe that everything will work out just fine. perhaps i miss missing someone, having my thoughts concrete and laid out in one straight path, without the idealism.
Monday, January 22, 2007
the week that just passed :
being accosted by a persistent surveyor, the annoying perfume promoter, a distresssful time at NUM, fun but embarrassing time at Sentosa with the guys and steph, unpleasant dinner at Asian Kitchen, meeting the girls and abandoning our DXO plans, heading for MOS instead where the crowd was horrid, meeting a nice Aussie man and his girl, and another gentleman on the dancefloor and stoning at Macs at 4 in the morning
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
2 years ago, on this very day, we were at East Coast Park. you were showing me the scars of your childhood accidents. and i, naive as i was, took everything in.
Friday, January 12, 2007
trace your silhouette in candlelight
flowers, lovely dinners, being sent home in a cab at midnight. these are the strangely unfamiliar i'm not used to having in my life. but since it has happened, i shall enjoy it while it lasts.
i'm missing so many people now.they seem to be vanishing into assessments, projects, work, army, vacations and many others. i wonder if i'm gone too.
Wednesday, we wanted to get to Arab Street for Shisha/Hookah or whatever you call it.
"a little smoke never killed anyone" so he says. but we were too lazy so we decided to have a little feast and then stone at the Pyramid instead. peaceful night staring at the threatening orangey sky and the lighthouse in a distance, talking about my holiday, varsity, christening a toad, playing on the slide, watching toddlers.
i feel like dancing, actually.
Monday, January 08, 2007
we hung out on friday for the last time before he enlists for National Service.
had Jap for dinner, caught Blood Diamond and shared a Haagen Daz Sundae which we had along the road near Somerset. after, we wandered around in Meridien talking about Thai massages and being a masseur.
he almost made me believe that there would be a MacDonalds outlet in my ulu neighbourhood when he mistook the coffeeshop sign as the Macs one. amusing. it was a nice chill out day except that i cant bring myself to say that. i often have difficulty expressing appreciation.
my mum told me of an ex-neighbour's son who passed away of cancer at 36years old of age. i felt sympathetic for a while but that feeling was so fleeting. life seems so fragile but, perhaps that's why we should have all the fun we can have while we can.
Sat was spent at home groaning, sniffing and coughing.
met mich neo on Sun, after a really really long while. spent the day shopping and catching up with each other.
she asked why i'm still alone. and i said i still havent found the right one. boy, what a lie.
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
girl with kaleidoscope eyes
i've been silly. that i know too well.
D : "i kind of liked you back then"that was 2 years ago? and that just makes everything more screwed up than it already is. i think i will just be ignoring that. so, you can continue talking to me if you have something else to talk to me abt
it's a New Year yet again. last year, we hid away from the world and thought we were happy that way. this year, we joined them and i had fun.
i dont quite rmb much. all i recall was waiting outside starbucks for the fireworks, running into KF and Zhuan and then Chris in the morning, the nasty pain, getting my heel stuck in the pavement again, talking to ray briefly abt As and white men. and i recall him replying with
"another place, another time" to one of my qns. and somehow, that phrase seems a little too familiar but i cant seem to recollect where i've seen or heard it. but i somewhat think i'm supposed to.
sitting at some random pub, listening to random music that i mostly could not comprehend was rather amusing. except when we drank a little too much and became overly maudlin.
i was supposed to meet mich or c. but i so happened to forget and only saw the messages and missed calls when it was too late. and i think i should have gone. instead, i went along and they snucked me into the cinema where i found myself waking up next to ray and benson.
i'm really glad for all those who were there. those who have always been there.
he always make me tongue-tied and at a loss for words even after knowing him for such a long while. it's disastrously embarrassing.
Thursday, December 28, 2006
reminder on 27 dec 2006, 700am -
you're just another girl
Thursday, December 21, 2006
currently at work and busy doing Chinese to English translation, making many mistakes, ending days with talk about the future (or my lack of it), marriage, children, aging amidst many other subjects. work is draining but that's just routine and it's way better than being idle. the incessant rain is rendering me shoeless besides having an extremely negative influence on my sleep pattern and dreams, darkening them and making them seem more than surreal and making me more paranoid.
other than that, everything's going great. there's the comfort of knowing that des is opposite at Sunshine Plaza, playing tetris, researching and ready to rescue me if i ever need any rescuing. on the other hand, i've been taken for a fool again. but what's new about that. however, i'm relieved that things are cleared up and almost back to the way things were before.
this is where you can find me from 9am to 6pm, from monday to friday every week. for most lunch times as well. just ring the bell.
signing off,
the
sweet love
thing
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
what a (lovely/lonely) thing, in a blood red dress
right now, i'm slightly handicapped without my cellphone which i broke and now i'm broke too and in much debt. tmr, i'm going to check out the gym at work. if it doesnt work out, i'm going to spend lunchtime with the new book - 'The Wall Jumper'
other than that, i'm truly glad for the people who care and do not judge me like how i judge myself, help me sort out my thoughts when they deviate and slip, wait more than 2 hours with me for my turn to service my phone, hold my stuff while i digress and go shopping when i'm supposed to be picking up stuff and head home straight and watch me parade around in red dresses..
and there are those i would love to mock. for their cowardice and their lies.